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So I went hunting around the internet for BDSM related topics because my brain is kinda fried today and noone’s helping me out with subject matter. And one topic for discussion really jumped out of me and made me reflect on my experiences at events. The question for discussion was “Why do some people (inContinue reading “MSJ – Submissives at Public Events”
So one of the learning experiences we all go through is being exposed to (not really) dominants. I don’t capitalise because they are “fake” dom/mes and I don’t consider them worthy of the title. I’ve had plenty of brushes through my travels. Munches, under 30’s BDSM group, fetlife, dating sites, friends of friends, all overContinue reading “MSJ – “Dominants””
So one of the good things about long distance is getting to know each other and experiment in the early stages while still feeling safe. Nervous, but safe. Some limits can be pushed, you can see a taste of the dynamic, and it can be fun. For example you can see how Daddy structures, theContinue reading “MSJ – Long Distance Relationship”
So not all my explorations have been bad, for me. Right after the fiasco with my first “Daddy” I got a taste of what it would feel like to have a real Daddy, at least sexually. I went around to spend an afternoon with a friend from a kik group with the express purpose ofContinue reading “MSJ – First Taste”
So one of my more recent mistakes was being too eager. After trying to figure myself out for so long I did some reading and looking around the age play communities. I devoured wholesome and sexual fantasies, relationship dynamics, how submission looks for littles, what Domination looks like from Daddy/Mummy Doms. It all just …Continue reading “MSJ – My First “Daddy””
A series of minor incidents taught me that I have a very hard limit of being ignored of having affection withdrawn as a form of punishment. The incidents themselves aren’t even noteworthy, being sent to a room alone for a timeout, that was too long. Not being allowed to touch, hug, kiss, snuggle, anything, myContinue reading “MSJ – Unacceptable Punishments”
Pre-warning – this one isn’t good. I’m still working through the trauma left from this, so take that as advice to leave if you are triggered by withdrawn consent, and emotionally scarring interctions. My absolute worst experience was what I now know was rape. Girls and guys, you CAN withdraw consent at any time, includingContinue reading “MSJ – Anal, My Biggest Mistake”
So anyone who’s read my fantasies knows that I have an interest in being loaned out or taken by other people in front of Daddy. This is not something newly discovered in my recent self-exploration, I’ve had an interest in it always. I only mentioned it to one past partner. The result was everything IContinue reading “MSJ – Other People”
So I’ve decided to just randomly post my experience with no particular order of impact or severity. But this one made sense to start with because it’s such a core part of play. WAAAAAAAYYYYYYYY back I went to an under 30’s BDSM retreat. Most people were staying all weekend, but me and the friends IContinue reading “MSJ – Aftercare and Drop”
Welcome to the first post in the My Submissive Journey collection. It seems fitting to start at the beginning. Also warning for these posts, I made some BIG mistakes on my journey. There may be triggers, abuse, and all those other warnings you might consider relevant for a BDSM learning journey. Reader beware. I guessContinue reading “MSJ – Initial Post”
About this collection
Hi, I’m lil melody. This is my journey into learning about my submissive nature. There were a LOT of missteps and learnings. Maybe this will help someone.
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